He said.

   I trust you a lot than you ever imagine. All plans and promises - they are locked deep here and slowly transform into hope. All memories that I used to afraid of having them - finally bring out sorrow, because too much memories hurt, so much.
   I am scared for not being able to love. I never thought loving someone would hurt this much. How one same person could make you feel loved and unwanted.
   He said he was lucky to have known me. He said he was proud of having me. He said he was going to take me somewhere near his house. He said he was going to take me on a date with his cousin. He said I am beautiful when I think I am a mess. He said I have a big tummy but he don't mind. He said he didn't want me to be such a crybaby. He said I was a bad surprise planner but yet he stayed. He said I had to learn cooking. He said he loved me 'so much' that he didn't want to see me sad. He said he wanted to fulfill his promises. He said we only need to let it flow. He said all we need is trust. He said we will make it together till the end.
   "He said", I see. I maynot live in memories, I know. Because people come and go, yet I do not have that ability to stop people from leaving.
   I have to face the truth and wake up.

Raindrops.

Today, I know we are staring at the same sky
But not the same dark sky
It is raining heavily here
Where raindrops are falling so hard to the ground
And the cold flow within my bones
I can't help but to keep staring
Because it is exactly like me

How I fall so hard into you who doesn't even appreciate my existence like the ground
Because I am nothing when the sun finally shine
How I have to watch your heart freezes while mine break even worst than pieces
How I wish you could be that sea whos always ready to catch me when I fall
Who will cherish my existence
Because without me, you are no longer that enermous sea but only an ugly ground
This stupid thought of mine thinks that I complete you

I'd opened up my heart to trust and willing to give chance
I had to act blind and deaf to be with you
I had to deny the bitter truth behind
Because you finally built the trust up
You gave me courage to make decisions on my own and followed my heart
But in the end, my heart was wrong
I should have known it from the beginning

From the very very very beginning 
So everything didn't turn this way
Confusing and complicated
All efforts and happy moments
They turn dark and sad for me now