Special.

We passed day by day
With joy or even sorrow
We faced so many things
The good or even the bad ones
And later when things are getting hard
I can now bravely tell that I have no fear
Because I am surrounded by many good peoples
Family, friends and you

I won't write about who "you" are
I will only keep it in my mind
I am sure if you are reading this
You'll directly know that it's you anyway
Because you are the only one

Well, I may fall in love with many guys before
But I've never loved anyone as much as I love you
So I could tell that you are special
Special that you may act annoying sometime
You may make me worry a lot
You may make me jealous for some reasons
You may make me sad
But I just loved you even more
Little by little everyday
You let the love grows
More than yesterday but less than tomorrow

I love it when you always try your best to make me happy
Even when I don't realize it
I love how your eyes stare into mine
When you stare at me for long
And all I can see is myself reflected on your eyes
I feel like it is only me
You see only me

Back then I don't know why and how
I fell for you so unexpectedly
I've never imagined that you'd be so important
That you mean the world to me
And I am surely won't let you go, ever
I will remember the promises we made also
Seems childish but I think it is sweet

Okay, I may write a very long long long writing
If I keep continuing this
Tbh, the purpose of me writing this is
Because someone asked me to
And he has been wanting to read this for so long
So here you go
But thanks to that someone
Thank you for everything
I love you! ♡

Our Story.

Had you ever heard about fairy tales?
Then, what about their endings?
Yes, they ended up living happily ever after

Well, I wish our story end up that way too
Because I want to be happy with you
I am not wishing that our story should be like
As romantic as a romance movie,
As cute as a drama couple,
As magical as a magic show,
As fun as a roller coaster,
As sweet as a cotton candy,
Or else
No, not that.

We already have our own story
So we don't need to make up one like those above
Our story may be the complicated one
But thats it
Ours is unique
Ours is the story other people can never felt
The story other people can never understand
The story other people can never have
Because our story has you in it
And I feel blessed

I know we're having hard times now
And you may not be reading this
But I want you to know that
Its always about timing
Its not that I don't want to tell
But I am just not ready yet

I want you to believe that
Everything is beautiful at the right time
Because I believe that

I believe our story will be beautiful
And end up happily ever after too

Flows.

Like water in the river
The feeling flows one way 
To one point
Every second
Every minute
Every hour
Every day 
And never once stop

Yes, this feeling never stop
Even when it is forced to forget
Because it is getting tiresome
Each time you get close
To somebody else
Out there

But the thing is 
Water may meet rocks
Leaves
Branches
Fishes
Or else as it flows
But still,
It ends up to one point later
Well, that one point is you
Not him

Footsteps.

I was following the footsteps
Every each of his footstep I saw
Without once realizing that
I've gone a way too far
Too far that even his very first footsteps had gone
And I had no way to go back again

All I could do at that moment was only following
It was a long journey with hard work 
That was worth fighting for
But what if this journey has no end?
How far should I continue to go on?
What if I stop and go my way?

Even if I continue walking behind your back
Have you ever noticed that?
You kept walking
Without once turning back
Without once seeing me
Who stepped on your footsteps diligently

Moon.

In the morning
When the sun is shining so bright
The moon can only hides
Supporting the sun from his back
Without the sun knowing
In the hope that the sun could shine
Even brighter each day

But when the night comes
The moon shines with the help of the sun
The moon couldn't glow
If the sun weren't there
So the point is
The moon needs the sun
Like how I need you
Because the moon is me
And the sun is you here

Talking about reality
There might be that one case
When I may not be there
In your ups and downs
When someone else might be there
And none of your memories
Tell you about me
Still and all
I am watching
Like the moon
Quietly but always there
When you need me
In my place

I hope you will keep shining
With your enchanting rays
While I can only depend
And keep giving supports
From your back

Some things are better left untold
What I want to tell you now
Is better left untold
Because I am only that moon
Who hides

Our fate.

That eyes that stared right into mine
That day, I recognized the way you saw me
I somehow felt warm
Not the warm I got from the sun
Or the warm I got from the fireplace 
Or the warm I got from the bonfire either
It was just that warm
And I love it

Do you feel the same way like I did that day?
Does your heart beat faster when I'm around?
Do you see me differently now?
Does your face turn red whenever you think of me?
Does even your body tremble when I touch you?

I question it myself
Wishing I'll figure all the answers
As easy as counting those sheep in my dreams
Because I did
They all happened to me yesterday
And will happen continuously, I guess
Because I have reasons
Reasons that make me stay

No idea how I am trying to wither it
Little by little
It starts to bloom again
One by one
Like a garden of big red roses

But those thorns of inability
Inhibit us with the past
The fact of your past that I can't admit
Your past that worries me
I do have a lot of reasoning
About us

Well, now
Just let me emphasize the matter
We may have feeling toward each other
But what if we are not meant to be together?
Whatever it takes, take my hand, not theirs
And we'll make it happen
Together

Maybe this isn't our time yet
I let the fate decide
If we are meant to be
We'll be together
Maybe not now, maybe not yet
But the future