He said.

   I trust you a lot than you ever imagine. All plans and promises - they are locked deep here and slowly transform into hope. All memories that I used to afraid of having them - finally bring out sorrow, because too much memories hurt, so much.
   I am scared for not being able to love. I never thought loving someone would hurt this much. How one same person could make you feel loved and unwanted.
   He said he was lucky to have known me. He said he was proud of having me. He said he was going to take me somewhere near his house. He said he was going to take me on a date with his cousin. He said I am beautiful when I think I am a mess. He said I have a big tummy but he don't mind. He said he didn't want me to be such a crybaby. He said I was a bad surprise planner but yet he stayed. He said I had to learn cooking. He said he loved me 'so much' that he didn't want to see me sad. He said he wanted to fulfill his promises. He said we only need to let it flow. He said all we need is trust. He said we will make it together till the end.
   "He said", I see. I maynot live in memories, I know. Because people come and go, yet I do not have that ability to stop people from leaving.
   I have to face the truth and wake up.

Raindrops.

Today, I know we are staring at the same sky
But not the same dark sky
It is raining heavily here
Where raindrops are falling so hard to the ground
And the cold flow within my bones
I can't help but to keep staring
Because it is exactly like me

How I fall so hard into you who doesn't even appreciate my existence like the ground
Because I am nothing when the sun finally shine
How I have to watch your heart freezes while mine break even worst than pieces
How I wish you could be that sea whos always ready to catch me when I fall
Who will cherish my existence
Because without me, you are no longer that enermous sea but only an ugly ground
This stupid thought of mine thinks that I complete you

I'd opened up my heart to trust and willing to give chance
I had to act blind and deaf to be with you
I had to deny the bitter truth behind
Because you finally built the trust up
You gave me courage to make decisions on my own and followed my heart
But in the end, my heart was wrong
I should have known it from the beginning

From the very very very beginning 
So everything didn't turn this way
Confusing and complicated
All efforts and happy moments
They turn dark and sad for me now

One Second.

   Cause one second it was perfect, how I could forget the busy town and only feel you.
   Cause one second I feel the time stops for us, all the hustle and bustle, I hear it no more.
   Cause one second you turn myself out of my mind, giving me thousand feelings I couldn't even tell.
   Cause that one second won't ever happen again until the right time comes.

Book.

   I am a girl who once filled up a few papers of your book. A girl who poured sparkles of joy from papers to papers long ago. But that girl didn't exist anymore. Because I see no more me reflected from your blackblack eyes. I see nothing. Not even an atom of my existence.

   But then, I realized that things happen beyond my expectation. My name was written on the next chapter of your book again. I didn't practice silence. But through silence we let ourselves reckon, whether to tear the pages up or to continue filling it.

   The hour wheels keep rotating and never get tired, today 24 hours will be replaced with the other 24s. But together we still filled up each other book until now. It is a long journey and we're still young, but look into my eyes. There's you.

   And even if oneday we were separated by distance, you don't have to fear. We have trust. And just promise me little thing. Promise me that we will keep filling up each other book till the end, can you?

Together.

It may be hard and complicated
It may take time and effort
It may be hurt sometimes
And I understand about how tiring it is

Very tiring.

But can't we just get through them together?

Hold my hand.

Please hold my hand and never let go
Bring me along to where the future will take
Whether it is the time or it isn't the time to say goodbye
Please just don't spell
It will never gonna be a farewell though
I know it very well
Because I'll stay
And you'll also stay, right?

Silence.

In silence I catched your eyes
Staring with no word spoken
Because in silence
I let our eyes speak
To speak about the words
The mouth couldn't tell

Was it a sin to hold onto someone?
Was it a sin now when it wasn't even matter back then?
Could this silence be the answer?