Thank you.

We don't find our way out
Because it ends
Everything ends
But not a feeling

All the smile I used to have when I see you
All the laugh you used to make
All the love you ever gave me
All the time we ever spent together
All the undescribable feelings I felt near you
I appreciate them all
All of them
With no exception
But it ends

I don't regret the feeling I have
Because I am happy with it
At least we have fun for months
And I am thankful for that
Thank you because you ever make me happy
Thank you because you ever make me feel special
Thank you because you ever make me feel loved
Thank you because you teach me love
Thank you because you give me experiences
Thank you because you bear with me for all this time being
Thank you because you finally tell it right
And thank you because we have quite a nice farewell with no anger and hate

There's actually so much to thank for
But I don't think it is necessary
Well, thank you and goodbye
I wish you a happier life
Because I will live well too

Because it is you.

Even if the sun shines so bright
Even if the rainbow shows up
It is still going to be rain down here
Because when I see you
I miss you
And when I ignore you
I miss you more

I just couldn't bear the thought about us
How we used to be
And the places we ever go

It may mean nothing for you
But every moments I spent with you are special
The simplest one or the sweetest one
Even when we only sit next to each other
Talking nothing becomes special
Because it is you
You make everything feels special

You are not perfect
And I know it so well
I don't ask you to be perfect either
Because it is you
You don't need to be perfect to be loved
You just have to be you
No matter how annoying you can be
No matter how often you get mad
No matter how protective you can turn
No matter how you get jealous over somethings
You will still be you anyway

But now I don't feel like it is you
You turn into an absolutely different person
I don't know you
It's not like you
I couldn't different this
Whether I still haven't believe it is you or
It is just a feeling
You feel different now
So cold
Not like you
But I just couldn't hate you
Because it is you

Fool.

So I was still hoping
Like counting sands in the desert
I may see only a little bit hope
But this hope gave me strength
Strength to break me apart or
The strength that pick me up

But as long as there's hope
Why can't I hope?
Is it wrong to do so?
Or am I being so depending?

I know I make myself suffer by hoping
But why can't I hope for happiness?
Am I not allowed to have happiness?
How can I easily forget someone who gave me so much to remember? Who gave me happiness?
I don't mind suffering a little
Because now or later
When I finally know the truth
Then I'll stop hoping
Even if it may take time
I'll realize that it is a must anyway

Tbh, I am too scared to face reality
I don't know am I becoming a timid
Or am I becoming a coward now
So both are just the same actually
Both are fool who run away and deny the truth
I don't want to
But I am scared

What can I do when I have no courage to see you on the face now?
What can I do when I have no courage to call your name?
What can I do when I have no courage to text you?
What can I do when I have no courage to walk near you?
I am scared you'll ignore me
I am scared you care no more
I am scared you'll find me annoying
What should I do then?

What should I do...

First time.

Hey,
What about all the times we've been through?
Have you forgotten them all?
How we first talked and joked?
How we first fell for each other?
How we first made it up?
How we first walked side by side?
How we first stared at each other?

So the first time was so beautiful
And unforgettable for me
Even after all this time
It is enough to make me happy
Just to think about it

Your good morning texts
Or your good night texts
Or your I love you and I miss you texts
Are enough too
I don't need things
As long as I know you really love me

You don't have to buy me tons of chocolates
Bring me sparkling diamonds
Send me thousands of flowers
Kidnap me with the most expensive vehicles
Drive me through a river of golds
Or anything
You don't have to

I want you to tell me you love me
Because I need to hear it now
Like the first time